silkiechan

I haven't been active as of lately, haven't I? :'D it's time for the last journal-update of the year since I'll probably be busy the last days of '13.

My summer vacation started yesterday, and asjdlashdlasd ;w; so happy that I can finally relax and do stuff. Though probably I'm just going to be lazy and do nothing but at least I can get some decent rest.

So what's my summer's plan? Well, next week will be free and after that starts my "summer school" as an intern in the hairdresser-shop I had my last work-learning course at. They were glad that I could come there and help them out since they need some jam-help, especially in July (weddings = people who need their hair dyed, cut and dressed). My object is to learn about hairdresser-business and practice hair-dyeing (which we haven't learned in school since it's 2nd year stuff, but I've done it in my free time anyway and in my December-January-intern days), which will be fun. It'll be 6 weeks, which means I have about 3 weeks of free time and still get to pay the rent and bills ;w; I was so sure that we'd be fucked in summer but everything turned out alright.

Any other plans? Well, there won't be much money for us to travel much but there is a couple of trips that might work out. We've planned to go visit my dad the first weekend of July, since he agreed that he'd come to Oulu for shopping and would pick us up on the way. Then we'd come back to Oulu with a bus, so it's only one-way payment. And once Teme and his Magic-pals decide the date when they're going to this summer cottage, I'll go to Rovaniemi for weekend :3 'cos I miss all the fellas there Aaand at the end of the summer it would be so cool to go to this "Lapland cruising" with our old gang, for old time's sake. We rarely have the chance to see each other so it would be cool to go wild and wreck the top of Finland-maiden >8)

Projects? Barry. Definitely Barry the Chopper-cosplay since I've ignored it for like 3 months! >_< It'll look so cool once I continue it. And I want to finish some commissions I have, just need some equipment for them. And of course, draw like a maniac. I'm so gonna finish drawing LC chapter 4 this summer, sketches are almost ready but there is so much more; cleaning the sketches, background-coloring, base-colors for characters, shadows and highlights, details, bubbles...and I'm lagging in the deadlines of them already x'D though ch 3 is ready and has me covered for quite few months to come, it's always good to have that much time that there's no need to rush the pages. Oh how I remember the first chapter, when I didn't have any puffers. Had to rush things so much getting older makes you wiser.
And of course the weather's beautiful so we'll be taking some walks. I'm already quite slim but my back and arms need some muscles to keep up with my future career.

Oh, and I started watching Shingeki no Kyojin a couple of days ago. I've said this a gazillion times now, but I'll say it again;
It's like watching a car-accident. It's brutal, agonizing but you can't turn your head 'cos you need to know what happens next.

So, what are your plans for summer? :3

Today, while drinking coffee with some classmates at school, I had this conversation with one of the girls (a year older than me) that got me thinking a lot of stuff. We had been discussing smoking when there was about 4-5 of us in the coffee-table, and I told about how, when I smoked, it was hard to quit since there was always something that ticked me off and I had to have "a nerve-calmer", which naturally made me continue smoking. Then we started to discuss about situations that make/made us smoke, in which I answered that heavy drinking makes it too damn easy to just go out/smoking-booth and ask for a cig, and that it's a good thing I don't get kicks out of it anymore. The girl replied that "she couldn't live without partying every week, visiting friends and travelling whenever she can, and that she would never want to be the kind of people who sit at home doing nothing". It made me feel a bit annoyed, since it basically felt like she was saying that her way of living was much better than mine, but then I started to think;

Does it really matter how you live your life, as long as you feel content?

Personally I get a bit tired of stuff pretty easily. That might sound a bit harsh, but it also makes things feel more special when they happen. I got my fair share of partying when I was a teenager, and at the time it felt like a cool thing to do. As time went by, it started to feel a bit tiresome and stupid. When I turned 18, going to bars legally felt a bit boring, but spending time with friends was fun as always. And these couple of years have made the sensation grow even stronger, though nowadays it feels more fun to stay at home and watch movies/play games together rather than going to bars to get annoyed by random drunk people who either pick fights or try to hit on you while your boyfriend is right next to you (which can be counted as picking fights ). Don't get me wrong though, I do visit bars, but rarely (the last time being New Year's eve, and it was fun 'cos I got to have a deep conversation with this person I hadn't been talking so deeply before). And sometimes those bar-visits would've been better if we had just bought a bottle of good liquor and some other liquid to dilute it, and stayed home while watching some weird-ass movie. One of the best alcohol-related events was when we were visiting Inari about a year ago, and we drank mint-liquor-cacao while watching episodes 1-4 of The Legend of Korra

Dunno, maybe it's 'cos I've been in a great relationship for a couple of years and usually don't need the "extra-looks and compliments" from strangers, and currently don't feel like I'd need any extra-excitement in my life. It might be the reason I don't really get what's so great about going out for drinks every week. I got tired of going to bars even once a month at one point so how can people go there, like, 2-3 times a week? o_O And traveling away for a weekend more than once a month makes me grumpy 'cos I wanna get some rest from school, and it feel a bit tiresome to sit on a train for hours. I do like travelling, it's really exciting to wait for some trip that has been planned for months, but I think travelling loses it's magic if it isn't rarity (no MLP-pun intented). And though spending time with friends shouldn't be seldom, in my opinion it's still better to keep quality over quantity. It really means the world to me if I get to see a group of my friends and spend this amazing day with them once or twice a month rather than spend so much time with them everyday that I'd take it for granted and stopped enjoying every minute of the time spent together. I do admire people who can spend all of their time with their friends and family and never get tired, but unfortunately I do need me-time to enjoy social activities to their fullest potential

So, what makes my life content? 'had to answer that question this week while visiting our school-nurse to survey our situations in life and to make sure we'd have enough motivation to study or something like that. The paper asked to list three things, but I had to list four; my relationship, family, friends and hobbies. I'm so grateful for the people that have been there for me ever since I was born, and for people who've happened to come to my life and decided to stick with me, despite my lacks and errors. It's good to know people see good in me when I fail to see it myself, and sometimes are kind enough to point them out for me. It gives me so much joy (in many ways ;D) living with the person I love, to have his support when I need it and to share my happiness, sadness and thoughts altogether with him. And to know that no matter how bad the day is, there is this warm, welcoming home waiting for me.
And then there's my hobbies that I would go nuts without. Every new drawing is an adventure to imagination, every new crafting project is a new way to challenge the knowledge and handcraft skills that has been achieved. It's so amazing to find an old story you've written and find some new ideas for projects you've been planning to make. And to balance it, it is sometimes a good thing to "do nothing". To keep the thirst to create fresh, 'cos it feels bad if you can't get the kicks from something you love doing. Like an old marriage, I suppose gotta have some quiet times to make the good times shine like never before. Though in my case, doing nothing includes playing games, reading memes and watching tv-series, anime and movies. And it makes me feel very content about my life. It does need some excitement from time to time, but exciting things don't feel exciting if they're the only thing sought in life in my opinion.

Those were some damn long pennies so, what makes you happy in your life?

Since dA is having some issues on my computer, I'll write some news about Lost Cause as journal instead;

Firstly, there won't be a page this week. That's because you're going to get 3 pages next week 8) second info-page, chapter cover and the first page of chapter 3! We're totally spoiling you guys~ >u<

Second, the source will become Smackjeeves. I'll update LC here as well, but with preview-icon. I hope you'll get used to the new system too ^u^

And thirdly, thank you for your support and for reading Lost Cause. It means so much for the team QwQ

Start reading Lost Cause here

As for my personal life, I've been sick for the past few days =_=' after almost week my hubby still has fever, which is concerning. Though he's used to it now and seems more cheerful with 37,5 degrees fever (accomplised with painkillers, otherwise it'd be over 38 degrees...) than I do with 37 degrees.

'cos I've been stuck inside, I've started to play Pokémon Pearl from the begining again. Instead of Nuzlocke-challenge, I started "Gotta Train 'em All"-challenge >8D the rules are simple; catch one of each pokémon you can find (for example if the evolution-chain has 3 pokémon, you'll catch the first one you'll find of them and leave the rest of them alone) and train them all at the same time. To make it more fun (or tidious at times), cheat by checking every pokémon gym leaders and important trainers use, and customize your team accoring to the opponent. So far I've trained all of my pokémon to level 20 and am currently on the cycling road. And god is it boring at times should've gone with the Nuzlocke-challenge.

And book 2 of Korra is gonna start in a couple of weeks I've heard OwO so excited, I'm so gonna have this "Korra-wake" like I had when the book 1 season finale was released. Though me and my friend were exhausted, sugar-high and overly excited at the same time while the wake so it made no sense

Oh, and my new cosplay-project's starting to have a shape. Still not sure if it's going to work that well, but I might as well announce it too; I'm doing Barry the Chopper from FMA. And god damn is he big X'D it looks so hilarious when the armor's so big and then I come from the inside. I actually fit inside of the torso if I snuggle up a bit hahaha. I'll post pictures as soon as I start working with papermache.

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Check off your fears. (72 in all)

[x] the dark
[ ] staying single forever
[ ] being a parent
[ ] giving birth
[ ] being myself in front of others (used to though. And I still avoid it when being with strangers -w-')
[ ] open spaces
[ ] closed spaces
[x] heights (especially if it's bridges, I hate heights with water at the bottom.)
[ ] dogs
[ ] birds
[x] fish (big pikes ._. saw one splashing in the shallow water when I was young. Never went swimming there afterwards.)
[x] spiders
[ ] flowers or other plants (well, nettles are icky.)

So far: 4

[ ] being touched
[ ] fire
[x] deep water (Q_Q)
[ ] snakes
[ ] silk (wait what.)
[x] the ocean (a bit. It's full of big fish x_x)
[x] failure
[ ] success
[x] thunder/lightning
[x] frogs/toads
[ ] my boyfriends dad (he looks a bit scary, but is a nice person . u .)
[ ] boyfriends mom (no, though she makes me a bit nervous from time to time >u>)
[ ] rats
[x] jumping from high places
[ ] snow

So far: 10

[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[x] crossing hanging bridges (never gonna do it >_<)
[x] death (usually the death of my loved ones)
[ ] heaven
[ ] being robbed
[x] falling (though ironically I do it often -u-')
[ ] clowns
[x] dolls (especially clown-dolls.)
[x] large crowds of people (not at cons though, crowds in cons are nice)
[ ] men
[ ] women
[x] having great responsibilities
[ ] doctors, including dentists
[ ] tornadoes

So far: 16

[ ] hurricanes
[x] incurable diseases (I think this is pretty obvious if you know me well enough -u-')
[x] sharks
[ ] Friday the 13th (my lucky day! ò^ó)
[x] ghosts
[x] poverty
[ ] Halloween ('love it. Though it is scary.)
[x] school (when it has lots of shitty people.)
[ ] trains  
[ ] odd numbers (...seriously, wtf.)
[ ] even numbers (X'D)
[x] being alone (my biggest fear.)
[x] becoming blind
[ ] becoming deaf
[x] growing up (it means people close to me grow old, too. I know it's a part of life, but I don't like it.)

So far: 24

[x] creepy noises in the night (YES.)
[x] bee stings (probably the second biggest fear)
[ ] not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[x] blood (my own.)
[ ] dinosaurs
[ ] the welcome mat (*died*)
[ ] high speed
[ ] throwing up  
[ ] falling in love (used to be. Not anymore )
[ ] super secrets

Total: 27


If you wish to post this in your journal, it's been requested that you title it I'm afraid of _ out of 72 common fears

If you get more than 30, I strongly recommend some counseling
If you get more than 20, you're paranoid.
If you get 10-20, you are normal.
If you get 10 or less, you're fearless.

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I'm paranoid, like that's anything new Nothing big hasn't happened in my life lately, school's been a bit boring since we'll have 2 working days/week for three weeks. At least I'll get to finish chapter 3 in a couple of days. I also started this new cosplay-project, though I'm still in the middle of planning and some base-work so I'm not sure yet if it's doable.  Only time will tell

Oh, and finished Anohana some time ago. It was surprisingly heartfelt, even though at first it seemed like some dumb ecchi-series.